I signed up for a rock climbing lesson this weekend-as in, I put my credit card in. ACCHHHHHHH. That kinda makes it real.
Found out a favorite author is coming to my neighborhood in March. How COOL is that. I've tweeted her. Hopefully she doesn't think I'm completely weird (or maybe just a little? hmmm). I feel like I need more goals today, but I don't quite know what they are. Probably will do a second post once I figure this out.
First day back to work after mini-vaca sucks, btw.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Day #13-Somedays keeping calm is its own win
I stress. A LOT. Can you tell (do you care? HA). So for me, this day was just about traveling alone (done before) and allowing myself to upgrade to economy plus (yes, that $49 was totally worth the leg room). And adjusting back to work/life. Sometimes the change is just hard for me. I get into a groove and coming back into my routine is hard. And you know what? It's ok to order from seamlessweb.com while taking a taxi back home so that food will be there when you get home and you don't have to (try to) cook. The world will not end if you treat yourself.
Day #12-Not doing it all will not result in the world exploding
I was so psyched about going snowboarding (and the hubs was proud I did it too) that I really wanted to go again the next day. To be honest? I was tiiiiired. I wanted to run in the morning (hill repeats-which I did) and then snowboard but I realized it was too much to expect of my body on that day. I had a little bit of mini-failure fear, but I had to sit back and enjoy spending time with friends. By the way? They were ALSO TIRED. And have been snowboarding/skiing for years. Bonus? I had the best reaction/non-reaction to altitude and they were actually surprised it bothered me as little as it did.
Lesson learned? Sometimes it's ok to just CHILL. (Still working on that one).
View from the hills:
Lesson learned? Sometimes it's ok to just CHILL. (Still working on that one).
View from the hills:
Day #11-Suck it, downhill fear.
Snowboarding!! I've never gone skiing or anything like that. Sledding was my closest resume experience. I feel I have to preface this: I am terrified of heights (or so I thought??) Actually, I am terrified of cycling downhill. I see one of these:
And I want to die. Literally. Complete and utter panic attack. Dry mouth, nausea, probably stars. When I get to the bottom of the hill I can actually breath again. (If you've never had a panic attack, I don't recommend, they aren't fun).
What I was surprised at (besides the number of times I fell down) was that I was NOT afraid of the downhill while snowboarding. I was more frustrated with my inability to turn smoothly and create those cool s-curves that you see on TV (or that I saw the 3-year old kids doing while they passed me). My goal was to get down the hill (THAT was a bunny slope?!!) falling as little as possible. Well, the first time I'm pretty sure I fell every two feet and didn't realize this was equivalent to doing squats for 4 hours. But I DID it. And I loved the view from the gondola/lift.
Yes, this is how you start (magic carpet without any ironic drug references).
A note to friends who told me I should never do this because of my fear of heights (well-intentioned I am sure) as well as to myself for enabling/perpetuating this vision of me and believing it: SHOVE IT. How long did I put this off because I had created this belief/allowed others to create it that I couldn't handle it? F* that.
I may not be good (ok, definitely not good) but I even went up on the ski lift and got off with my board and floated (mostly) smoothly off (thanks instructor).
Views like this are what you get when you start to conquer your fears:
The funny part? I will probably do it again! I want to get better at it. More lessons for sure. And more time on the bunny slope ;-)
What I was surprised at (besides the number of times I fell down) was that I was NOT afraid of the downhill while snowboarding. I was more frustrated with my inability to turn smoothly and create those cool s-curves that you see on TV (or that I saw the 3-year old kids doing while they passed me). My goal was to get down the hill (THAT was a bunny slope?!!) falling as little as possible. Well, the first time I'm pretty sure I fell every two feet and didn't realize this was equivalent to doing squats for 4 hours. But I DID it. And I loved the view from the gondola/lift.
Yes, this is how you start (magic carpet without any ironic drug references).
A note to friends who told me I should never do this because of my fear of heights (well-intentioned I am sure) as well as to myself for enabling/perpetuating this vision of me and believing it: SHOVE IT. How long did I put this off because I had created this belief/allowed others to create it that I couldn't handle it? F* that.
I may not be good (ok, definitely not good) but I even went up on the ski lift and got off with my board and floated (mostly) smoothly off (thanks instructor).
Views like this are what you get when you start to conquer your fears:
Day #10
Day #10 isn't a huge deal...ok, I need to stop saying that. I have a TERRIBLE sense of direction. I mean, bad bad bad. I could probably get lost in my hometown and in my neighborhood now. Doing my long run in Telluride frightened me for a few reasons:
1) location. I had no idea where I was going and the maps we had were AWFUL. This stresses me out to no end.
2) Altitude. I had never run at this altitude-would my head implode? No really. I wasn't sure if I would last for 10 minutes.
3) Running with someone that I know, but never ran with. How would this work? Would she leave me in the dust? She is used to altitude and I was not. And she's an ultra runner. Intimidating.
Turns out, it's VERY hard to get lost in Telluride given its size. It's a teeny town. And yeah, we meandered but it was ok (and got yelled at by cross country skiers)! I didn't get 20 miles in, but I got 14, which my husband/coach says is ok because of the altitude. I was out there for a long time, being cautious withe the altitude.
Lesson learned. Going out of the comfort zone can result in some gorgeous views (even when you slip on ice and fall on your butt):
1) location. I had no idea where I was going and the maps we had were AWFUL. This stresses me out to no end.
2) Altitude. I had never run at this altitude-would my head implode? No really. I wasn't sure if I would last for 10 minutes.
3) Running with someone that I know, but never ran with. How would this work? Would she leave me in the dust? She is used to altitude and I was not. And she's an ultra runner. Intimidating.
Turns out, it's VERY hard to get lost in Telluride given its size. It's a teeny town. And yeah, we meandered but it was ok (and got yelled at by cross country skiers)! I didn't get 20 miles in, but I got 14, which my husband/coach says is ok because of the altitude. I was out there for a long time, being cautious withe the altitude.
Lesson learned. Going out of the comfort zone can result in some gorgeous views (even when you slip on ice and fall on your butt):
Day #9
This is a bit retro-active, so I may forget precisely what I did each day!
Goal: Keep calm when things don't go quite well/schedule is adjusted
Traveled to Colorado and a woman in our shuttle van took my luggage. My unique, unless you're a triathlete you're probably not taking this home with you luggage. I kept calm though, since earlier in the day a woman on our plane had collapsed and our plane had to be diverted so she could be taken off. Perspective maybe? For some reason I was very relaxed. I mean, what was I going to do? We went to get delicious baked goods in Telluride while we waited.
Goal: Keep calm when things don't go quite well/schedule is adjusted
Traveled to Colorado and a woman in our shuttle van took my luggage. My unique, unless you're a triathlete you're probably not taking this home with you luggage. I kept calm though, since earlier in the day a woman on our plane had collapsed and our plane had to be diverted so she could be taken off. Perspective maybe? For some reason I was very relaxed. I mean, what was I going to do? We went to get delicious baked goods in Telluride while we waited.
Would YOU take this bag? No. Why she didn't even notice that she took it? Beyond me.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Day #8
Emailed Toastmasters yesterday! I will be attending my first meeting with a group on February 14th. Very very VERY nervous. This is like a book report. Except I'm an adult (sort of). Very proud of myself for at least reaching out to set this up.
A couple of my goals have had small setbacks-although I didn't find a cooking class I DID make my first omelet by accident yesterday! I know. Somehow I meant to make scrambled but somehow I left the stove for a moment and it turned into a an omelet-it's a win or something, right?
(not mine, but you get the idea). Gourmet chef RIGHT HERE.
Today I think my goal is to revisit another volunteering opportunity and then something else-gotta keep up the streak!! Perhaps the rock climbing at Chelsea Piers (oh, GOD).
This makes me wanna die even MORE than public speaking. I may need a friend on this one.
A couple of my goals have had small setbacks-although I didn't find a cooking class I DID make my first omelet by accident yesterday! I know. Somehow I meant to make scrambled but somehow I left the stove for a moment and it turned into a an omelet-it's a win or something, right?
Today I think my goal is to revisit another volunteering opportunity and then something else-gotta keep up the streak!! Perhaps the rock climbing at Chelsea Piers (oh, GOD).
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